I'm upset because my US Visa was not approved yet. I'm supposed to attend a conference in the States just after Raya. With very limited time to make my international travel reservation, hotel reservation and other stuffs, not having my Visa approved last Monday has put me into this upset mode. I'm supposed to fly in three weeks time from now, and the Visa may only (or may not) be approved in two or three weeks. Argghh.. tension!I'm upset because my wife had just miscarrieaged our second child last Monday evening. I don't want to talk much about this as I strongly believe in faith. Allah Maha Mengetahui. Anyhow, that added another point into my upset mode.
I'm upset because yesterday my daughter (in KL) was missing me so much that she cried almost the whole day because I'm not around her. I went back to KL last weekend, stayed over from Friday night through Monday and Tuesday. So, we had a bit longer time to spend together. On any other normal weekends, I only stayed in KL on Saturday and Sunday. But this time I stayed a bit longer due to some emergency. On Tuesday night I had to return to JB for work. So, on Wednesday (yesterday) she was looking for me all over the house (in KL), and when failing to find me, she cried and cried and cried. Hearing her crying "where's my daddy, where's my daddy?" through the phone really broke my heart. I'm so upset.
I'm upset because I think I've made some bad decisions in life.
Time to think of another strategy.
Ya Allah, please give me and my family the strength to overcome this. Amin.